Lately I've been reading a blog that was found online by coincidence and it really touched my heart. I really like her words...
The title of her Blog is "A Taipei Girl in Shanghai". She moved to Shanghai with her husband, and start her lonely housewife life in Shanghai. Her writing is quite beauftiful. And I found she's very observant, and some of her words really touch my heart.
Some said in some ways I am her, well, in the same situation. That's why I like her diary a lot. Maybe yes. Anyway, I am now a new little fan to her! I really wanna encourage her to publish her own book as she is a talent writer, but I found she's quite shy to the unfamiliar readers online from the previous message dialogues. So I decided to hide my feelings to her and be a "silent reader" and simply enjoy whatever she wrote.
I was quite touched while I was reading the interaction between her and her parents-in-law. I feel she's a person surrounded with love and she knows how to give and take as well. That way she express her feelings to the people around her is called "True Love" I think. That touching images she described illustrated a beautiful scenes that have never been showed up in my life... I am sure I've never been there.
Suddenly I felt quite lost and sad. I can't help wonder "Maybe I never understand what true love is..." Coz I grew up in a family and enviroment never giving and taking love. We never talk about love. Never know how does true love could be realized and interacted in daily life. Never know how to express love. This is sad, I even don't know how to cherish someone and tell him or her "I love you". Maybe I've never been in true love, and maybe all my past relationships are all just illusions through the years.
God, I wish I understand what true love is. Please let me know what does it feel like? Please give me the power to love and be loved, and know how to express them through you....
